I totally agree with all three replies, they are very clear Mauvaise foi...possibly more clear than she was with you, at the beginning of your break up in March.

At this point, it's not a hint or a suggestion. It's a demand. Treat it that way. And like the above posts point out, who needs this kind of drama?

If you still feel it's so difficult for you, and I do get that you might, consider seeking out a counselor or Therapist and hash through your feelings with them. They will probably tell you the same thing we are, but they will probably have more insight into what is going on with her, which might help you move forward in your life, without her, and without the left over guilt you appear to be carrying.

Take care