Okay I' m being whiney and self-centred again - scream at me if I'm being annoying. I won't be upset.

I can't do this right now. I just want to stop crying. Please just make it stop. This is what? the umpteenth time today that I'm in tears over absolutely nothing.

***TRIGGER****

Now all I want to do is cut. My muscles aren't obeying me right now. If my muscles dont' stop shaking I'll do it just to make them stop. I just want this anxiety and the crying and the wanting to cut to STOP.

NOW. %#@&#!.