Hey (((((((((((((Moonkin))))))))))))) welcome to PC.

Don't give up asking and looking for help. It takes a shitload of work and time to feel better from anything, let alone from depression that's lasted as long as it has for you.

I'm sorry you've not any luck thus far, but I'm sure eventually you'll come across a good med and a good therapist that will really help you.

I'm sorry your friends and family aren't more supportive. I've come across that phenomenon myself, and it sucks.

You've found a good group of people here. Please continue to post and we'll try to help if we can.

Take care of yourself.