This is a very touchy subject and I'm not sure if I should post this or not but I'm hoping that only supportive and understanding women will post comments instead of judgmental ones.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for like 5 years. In October I found out I was 9 weeks pregnant. I was so scared and freaked out. I live in Texas and go to a private baptist university so they have the right to tell me that I can't study there anymore because premarital sex is against their beliefs. I was so angry with myself for letting it happen. It got to the point where I was so scared and angry I would hit myself (not hard enough for it to hurt or bruises or anything) in the stomach. I wanted to have a miscarriage. I couldn't even call it a baby, to me it was a thing growing inside me. I ended up getting an abortion. My parents still don't know. The only people I told were my sister, my best friend and my boyfriend's family. My boyfriend and his family were all so supportive.

I think about the abortion every single day but I don't regret it. But I do feel like I'm a terrible person because I feel like my reasons for getting an abortion weren't good enough. Like they weren't the right reasons. I didn't want to have to leave school and ruin my future. I didn't want to set my mom off in a stressful state and drive her to drink again. I couldn't afford to take care of a baby.

I haven't met anybody who has been through this and I feel so alone. Like I'm the worst person ever to have done this horrible thing for such dumb reasons.