Hey Aracela.

I can relate where you're coming from. I was pretty much bullied all the way through school, why? Because i was fat, that's all. I'm a native english speaker and i was even called and berated at school. The bottom line is haters are going to hate no matter what your downfalls may be. If people are going to hurl **** at you they will find anything they can lay their nasty dirty hands on.

As for being bullied, you believe it or not were there for a brief time. It's simply transference, those people that bullied you only done so because they hated something about their lives or them. You found yourself in this mind set when you regretably lashed out, and just so you know that doesn't make you an asshole or a bad person. It makes you someone who is so utterly despirate to put an end to a bad situation, to understand what's wrong with you and why people keep giving you ****. The reality of it is, you just got a ****** hand and have been put in an environment full of poison and that doesn't mean for a second there is anything wrong with you. Remember if people have a problem with you that's because it is their problem. As for letting go, you need to ask yourself one thing. Do i want to be free and move on and actually be happy? Or do i want to allow these pathetic bullying mother ****ers to dominate and controle the rest of my life? and only you can answer that question.

Lots of hugs and keep strong lil buddy!