I did the same thing as you. I got treatment in my teens and then quit treatment after I got ECT and went through a women's trauma program. I thought I was cured mainly because I need agreed with the BP dx in the first place. When I quit treatment I had had enough of judgmental doctors and therapists telling me what my problem was and telling me I didn't know enough to fix it. I also had enough of damaging medications that did more harm than good and doctors that refused to listen when I told them that this drug made me sick or that drug made me worse.

So I was hesitant to go back to all that last year when the symptoms came back full force. But in the last six years I have gained something I didn't have before, and that is self advocacy. I don't let doctors an therapists push me around now just because they have specialized degrees. You don't have to listen and do everything a doctor says just because. If you feel unfairly judged, find another provider. If a med is not working, or has a bad side effect, you can speak up and refuse to continue on it. You're not sixteen anymore. You are an adult and you have so much more power now!

I have an excellent therapist now. She knows when I'm being dramatic versus when I'm in a real crisis. My doctor, while she doesn't like being questioned too much, is a great doctor when it comes down to it. Usually if I explain my side without getting pissed off she will understand and accommodate me. It's different for everyone depending on where you are and how your insurance is but in general I think you will find that now as an adult you will be so much more empowered than you were as a teenager. You will have a better time in treatment.