but... maybe the question is more around 'will i ever feel better'. i mean... i guess i've given up caring whether they dx me with borderline personality disorder or borderline personality traits or post traumatic stress or dissociative identity or whatever...

none of that changes (well, it can make it worse if i internalise those above descriptions) but what dx i have doesn't really change the things that are / were hard for me.

i think that everybody struggles at times and everybody feels a bit of pain at times. those things are a normal part of the human condition. but a lot of pain and struggle can be very hard indeed. it does get better. the pain and struggle does indeed get better over time. will it ever go away completely? well... wouldn't there be something pathological if it did?