Well, let me blow your wig off with this one. I'm not really focusing on the past, not in my mind so to speak. There is no future for me. If you anything about American History, back in the day when this country built the railroads, when a man got sick, he stuck it out until he died, and then they dug a hole and buried them right next to the tracks. I'm an ole blue collar worker at heart and soul. I worked my *** off and never had time to take care of myself. Now I unable to work at the moment, so what I really want is my hole to be dug because I'm ready for it.