Maybe it could also have something to do with the fact that I hate myself, I have horrible self esteem. I Have an eating disorder, I am depressed and anxious. Theres just ao many things wrong with me. I also struggle a lot with keeping up with house work, I feel like I am always cleaning but things are never clean. So then I feel like I'm a failure because I can't keep my house clean. I've been doing fairly well in the last week or so but it's a constant struggle.