I had many girlfriends but only when I was drinking a lot. I was also married twice. In the end I pushed them all away when they tried to get too close. I hated doing things as a couple with others, I would rather it be just me and her doing things.

Since I quit drinking my APD kicked in with a vengeance. I did get married again about 8 years ago and she has accepted me for who I am. She knows I would always prefer to be home alone or at most both of us at home.

So I am very lucky to have found the best of both worlds!