I can't deal with ANYONE touching me. Not my hand, not hugging me, not poking me, not brushing past me. It makes me feel so sick and limp and lifeless, like I used to. I was sexually abused growing up, my first memory of it being at the age of 3, and it was very touch-centred.

Now I can't ever imagine myself being touched by another human. Not having a boyfriend or a husband (have absolutely no desire for sex at all now), a baby, holding a childs hand, hugging a friend... I just can't. It makes me feel isolated from everyone because this is my way of trying to protect myself, but someone always accidentally touches me. When they do i feel like i can't breathe or i'm going to cry, scream or be sick.

Is anyone else like this?