I am sorry. Losing anyone is such a horrid experience. I lost my mother when I was young and I will never forget the moment I was informed. This will take a long time until you can face the world again. Somehow, one day you will find light in your life again. you will be able to continue and smile and mean it. It does not have to be today, you are allowed to greive you don't have to be brave. We are here at PC to help and understand.

Keep on looking up and eat well, it will help you stabilize. She would want you to be healthy