Hey everyone,
I am new here, so sorry if I write a novel.
I have been struggling with anxiety for a very long time. I began noticing it in 7th grade. Anyways, I am at a difficult time in my life. I am just about ready to graduate from college and the change is not going well. I am not good with life changing events and they tend to push me over the edge.
I am over all a very happy person. I tend to refer to myself as an introvert in public and an extrovert at home. I am finding more and more that I shut down in social situations. I have a very bad habit of self-doubt. I always find a way to talk myself out of spending time with friends and end up alone. I have been trying to get a job, but I can't even seem to find the strength to put myself out there for that. I, most of the time, think of myself as unable to do certain tasks. It is not that I can't actually do them, but I tell myself constantly that I am not smart enough, not qualified, or not wanted. I hate that I do this to myself, but it is not something that I can control. As time passes, I fear that the anxiety and the self-loathing will only grow worse and I will continue to recede into my shell.
Some outside perspective on all of this would be greatly appreciated!