I am just so scared to take anything .. I don't trust the dr's, not any of them... I feel like they don't tell me everything that can happen with meds, I don't know what else is gonna happen to me. I take my respirdone because of the way I feel when I don't take it makes me very sucidal so I take that and I take zoloft , but wont take anything else. I had a friend who like me took lithium, got kidney disease, quit taking it and they gave her other meds and she ended up Tardive dyskinesia from it and now it wont go away ... so no I am not putting myself out there for that stuff, or anything else... but dont know how much longer I will last like this.

thanks so much for the supportive concern, just to scared to try anything else frozen in time.