I was talking to a friend who lost her mother 3 yrs ago. She said she enjoys talking to me as my feelings toward T echo her own grief.

I told her how T has let me borrow a book of her's as a transitional object. My friend said her mum would let her sleep in her bed when she was younger and her mother had to go away.

I did say I doubt T letting me sleep in her bed LOL!!

But I mentioned how yesterday as I was standing at the cooker preparing the evening meal, I remembered a session where I was talking about how I want to ask her questions, but feel scared to do so. I then said ok I've got a question, "whats for dinner" LOL then I immediately said "ok I wasn't being serious then LOL" and T smiled and said "But I haven't got a clue what I'm doing for dinner tonight and that is serious" LOL

I remembered that and it brought a smile to my face. My friend said that is a healthy sign in grief. She said its how the pain is lessoning now and she too remembers happy times she had with her mother.

This is the first break from T where I have managed to do this. To find something to smile about, instead of the rage at T for not being here!

Yesssssssssss we have progress LOL