Hi everyone,

I started dating this guy a little over a month ago and he opened up to me about an addition to opiates. He's very open about it, tells me when he's thinking about it or having cravings etc. He relapsed a week ago and was open with me about that, too. All in all, he hasn't given me any reason at all to not believe him or to not trust what he says.

He left his toiletry bag at my apt yesterday and today I saw a couple pills in there. I debated whether to look at them and, in the end, I did. I then debated whether to look up the code and, of course, I did. I was fully prepared to see "hydrocodone" pop up on my screen.......it was allergy medication. I started essentially bawling.

I feel like such a jerk right now. All he did was open up to me and I almost immediately break his trust by snooping. He's at work now but I know I have to tell him when I see him later tonight. I don't know if I'm looking for advice or just need to get this off my chest. I just feel like such a terrible gf right now. And I'm sorry if this isn't the appropriate place. I just don't really know where else to go right this moment.

Thanks for letting me vent.