Hello Hurting, I am in exactly the same boat as you. It feels horrible. I feel like I can't stop eating, once I get that urge to eat. I'll stuff myself before dinner and then go ahead and eat dinner anyway because then my family will want to know why I'm not eating dinner! I have tried a bazillion diets and like you it doesn't last and I wind up bingeing again. I actually had a lot of success with calorie counting for about a year, but then it backfired and I wound up COMPLETELY obsessed with food and always, always hungry. So, I'm now gaining back everything I lost and it's so depressing! I try to stop and I cannot stop!
I can so relate and hopefully writing about it in this forum will help us.