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Originally Posted by Teacake
I find I get blamed for BEING. I want to shake people by the collar and say, "im not the one who made you feel inferior when you had difficulty learning to read. It was the wrong method. It was your mother and teacher. I wasn't even there. I had nothing to do with me. Wake up. Come to now. I am not your authority figure of the past. I am not your parent, let me reintroduce myself".
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You could try applying an attitude similar to that, to yourself. You seem to be blaming everyone else who was or wasn't in your life, yet it angers you when others blame you. It goes both ways.
I could spend days and days going over all the opportunities that I missed out on due to not having the "right" people in my life.. or all the opportunities that weren't available around where I lived, or having some opportunities flat out denied me. I can blame everyone else for all the things that I missed out on... but what is it going to do? Nothing at all.
I find having empathy for others is a key part in my life - I'm not superior to anyone at all. I feel inferior sometimes, but I know that I am not. I live by the philosophy that everyone I meet will be better than I am at something, and that I in turn will be better than them at something. Considering one person to be superior to another is flat out wrong; we're all human.
You seem so focused on separating yourself from others Teacake. You aren't any more different than anyone else. But you keep judging everyone, either for not "giving" you what you feel you needed, or for being "less" than you. You're isolating yourself, and it isn't surprising that you seem so unhappy. It's lonely when you separate yourself, and live in the past.
If your life means nothing, that is because you have chosen it to be that way.