He Dexter, thanks for understanding. You make me curious about your illnesses. I am doing what I can and no more. Ready for a nap. My girls are pawned off on frindes today so they wouldn't be alone. Both now taking it hard, as well as my son who lives out of state. When I leave the youngest and her friend alone they talk about life and death and meaning and protecting parents. Their relationship is extra special. Again, thanks. I don't know how to do this but the only way out is through.