Teacake, I'm not here to diagnose you, or to deny that PTSD on its own is not a an all encompassing, debilitating condition.

I'm also not saying this out of desire to hurt you in any way.

But you really may want to consider that there may be more at play here than just PTSD. I'm concerned that you may not be getting the right treatment. Some of your posts seem a little out of touch with reality.

As a fellow sufferer of mental illness, I really hope you may be open to having a fresh evaluation with a good Pdoc. The right support and meds really can change your life. Even if the trauma is never directly addressed, so much more than dealing with trauma can be gained through therapy.

Honestly, I think you might really need meds. I'm only saying this because I understand the feeling of everything in the world being off kilter. It's terrible, and it doesn't have to be that way.