Feeling extremely overwhelmed today... I have so much to do. I am trying to calm myself and write a list but the list keeps getting longer and longer and I have no idea how I will get everything done on time. Dreading catching the train to the doctors and hospital with all my luggage but I have no one who can take me. Better figure out the train timetable too, another thing for my list. Wow I cant believe I am actually going in, I thought the last time would be the last time for sure. Such a disappointment.