You know Jinn noone should pressure you into talking.. not even the sweetest and best and most caring friend. You know better what is right for you and she should trust your judgement. Let her help in the ways that she can because she is right you know, that she is there and she is real and it must be great to have such a friend.

Let her know that she is your true friend but most of all do what you need for you. If you need to talk to people who have experienced the same as you then you should do so. And we will always be here for you.

Big hugs to you.. and don't be embarrased about being triggered. It is not you who should be ashamed but the people who did you harm.