Wow Guys, your answers really make sense and I can hear what you are saying pretty clear. Yes, I did take it way too seriously, because i believed that they were going find something really bad about me. I was so... badly stressed by this that I was quite literally tied up in knots, my muscles in my neck and back were all cramped up and I was exhausted when I was done! All because I was afraid of them!

I was subjected to alot of twisted thinking by a certain group of people that has had a powerful influence on my mind regarding Psych Docs, Psychology and Psychiatry. Much of their beliefs are that these Doctors are evil and use evil methods to control and manipulate weak people. It was a cult and I didn't know it until recently, yes I have escaped it, but their teachings still control me. Fear, suspicion, guilt,shame, condemnation etc Control!