Hey (((((((((((sidony))))))))))))) good for you for hanging in there as long as you have. Group therapy is hard and confusing and I was going through your post nodding my head since I agreed so much with it!
I've now finished my second group (I've been in two, each 9 weeks long, meeting once a week). Its taken me this long to get into the "swing of things".
I went into group the second time because I felt I didn't connect well with people and that a lot of the time I hate to ask for help, and that I felt I deliberately go out of my way to sabotage relationships and felt my relationships were shallow. So I went back to group.
I got more out of it the second time around, and I still haven't figured out "what" that was yet!
Maybe it's just the people there that you don't "click" with but maybe it's also the fact that you're seeing your T in two different environments and that's a bit weird? (It happened to me, that's why I bring it up ... group is run by my T)
I hope it goes well tomorrow.
I apologize for being all over the place.
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