I have no good answers or magic solutions, but I sure hope that this will change for you... little by little sometimes we have change and don't even realize it until things are the complete opposite. I can only offer that you're not alone (even though you really may feel alone...). Actually, on that "alone topic", i am finding out that that is actually a feeling. I used to think that alone meant "without others" and was how I lived much of my life. lately, my experience is that "alone" is different than "lonely" (which I didn't often feel), and that it really is a huge part of my isolating and likely part of my depression.
My new therapist was oh so helpful on this the other week. "You know, I think you spend too much time alone". Well thanks for that update LOL, I had no idea!
Take care F&H!