I see what you guys mean... I definitely saw him as having power, a heroic quality, if you will... But I was never afraid of him. I am afraid to disappoint him. I am afraid to lose him. I am afraid to let him know if I am angry with him. However, I don't see this as being afraid of him. With all of my issues aside, my dad and I really do have a wonderful relationship. We always have. I think a lot of my fear of losing him comes not only from the obvious, but from the fear of being left with only my mother. That would suck. No other way of putting it. In childhood and adulthood-- that. would. suck.