I'll tell ya I haven't felt this angry in a long time. Ugh....I'm taking risperdal again. It sucks. I'm taking 75mg lamictal, 50 mg doxepin for sleep, 50mg zoloft, 2mg loazapam for sleep, 30mgs buspar for anxiety, 10mgs inderal for anxiety.

I don't want more meds. I'm starting therapy for ptsd again. It's soooo hard. My traumas were complex. Many... I'm just so tired of it, ugh!!!!

I feel like ending it, but I keep telling myself I can't let the abusers win. I tried posting on the PTSD forum but didn't have much luck. So I'm posting here, I'm desperate....any encouraging thoughts???