Hi UM, I know it must be really disheartening/frustrating to come so close to something at least and then be let right before..........but maybe make some real use of the time before the next appointment, so you can go along more prepared than ever!!!
You're not some "ordinary" patient remember (!! ), you want them to really sit up and really pay attention.
And if they aren't quite as experienced they may be missing some of the more subtle but just as/sometimes more important questions. So you're going to be answering those questions despite that aren't you??!!
So a bit of note making before hand, if you haven't already done that??? All the problems you've been having (physical, emotional....the whole lot, in detail!!), how you feel about them, what's helped/what hasn't/what's made things worse, experiences with different medications, what you want/what you don't want from them..................
And let that give you a bit of a mindset that you're going to be walking in with some expectations and let them know that too!!! Alongside that (and work up to it now) you're going to be really discussing with them the best way forward. A route you're both OK with.
So not going to "waste" some of that waiting time, hey?
And in that time keep phoning (or if it's too difficult have your wife keep phoning) for any cancellations so you can bring the next appointment forward. Then at least if the receptionists have anything to do with the booking systems, your names going to be right up there in their minds if..........and if not then the messages mounting up about yours (or your wife's calls might say something.
And you know, if it's getting really hard with your meds really not working............then an appointment with just a general doc to temporarily prescribe you something that might help until.........??? You never know they could actually fall on something really useful!!
And "bright side" hey!! At least you only found small piles of vomit!!!!!
Alison