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New to the forum. I've gone the last two years self managing without meds, and though it's been difficult, I've managed with the support of my wife. Now, however, I have discovered that she is having an affair, and she has asked for a divorce. Along with this, many other factors have contributed to a loss of control. For the first time in two years, I gave into desire and self harmed. I'm unsure of what course of action to take. My moods have not been this severe in quite some time, and when they have I've had an external support. Seeking advice. Thank you!