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I dont think I have been "mad" I've just been in mourning for all my life!

that undeveloped part of me that was split off is still in despair and wanting and yearning. "Mum come back where are you?" LOL oh if only LOL

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Mouse, this makes sense. My mother was given up for adoption and so were another brother and sister. They were adopted out together. When she was a teenager, she found her birth mother in California and other brothers/sisters....I think 'mourning' describes my moms feelings to a tee.

I don't know if you have considered finding your birth mom, there are pros and cons to that. But it did help my mom quite a bit.