I hate the hospital and would avoid it absolutely when I can, but I am happiest when I'm engaged with life, am doing something society views as productive, have friends, a social life, hobbies. Even if I didn't want treatment when I was sick, when I start withdrawing into a world I can't share with other people, I want help. Maybe because my experience with hospitals have been somewhat helpful and short stays. If the choice was to stay isolated in my own delusions and my own world or live in a hospital for the rest of my life, absolutely I'll choose the yellow door. But if there is an option of a short hospital stay to adjust medication and get me back to the person I KNOW I want to be when I'm well, that's been my experience and my choice.

I am finally in balance right now, healthier than I've ever been, productive, creative, friendly. I would fight to remain here. (Not judging anyone else's experiences. What I view as the best option may not be yours and I accept that. Just explaining my point of view.)