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Originally Posted by isntlifewonderful
I'm extremely scared of my parents leaving me. I'm turning 18 in 6 months, my father litteraly hated and abused my guts when I was younger and my mother's ill. They don't want me to live at home cause I'm a danger to myself according to them, so I've been at this institution for a couple of months now. I hate it here. I want to be with my parents. I miss them so much. So now I keep trying to make them feel bad, threatening to never talk to them again if they wont take me back home, selfharming or threatening to commit suicide a lot etc. I never wanted to hurt them, I just wanted them to take me back and love them... it wasn't untill today, when one of the people who work here said "Sweetie, can't you see what you're doing? You're manipulating your parents. From what I've heard from your mom you've been doing this since you were a child... she keeps on asking why you're doing this to them because she loves you so much". I'm a terrible person. But I don't know how to stop. I'm disgusting.
Anyone else who does these sort of things without even realizing? How do you stop yourself from doing so?
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i have done it many times
don't mean to, can't help it.
glad to see you're posting a lot more...i haven't been posting myself much as i have been running a muck, LOL! but getting back on topic, i haven't manipulated my parents much because we have never been close.
i have done it only because i want what i want (mainly attention more than anything!) i know that i am a monster but i don't mean to be! he he, just kinda happens that way! sometimes i realize it..other times i don't care and do it anyway.
i have found that if i keep my walls up and keep people from getting too close to me i can control it better, if they get to close i begin to want more and more from them and then things tend to get ugly(oops,sorry about that
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realizing what you are doing is probably the first step, but it's hard..really hard.it's just something we do, it's part of what we are.a lot of times it will happen automatically & depending on my emotional state i will decide whether i want to try and control it or not..if i am really distraught or want something really badly all bets are off..i'm willing to try whatever i think will work to help me get what i want.idk if this will help..hope so!
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