((((((Idiot17)))))) For years I found a way to muddle through and avoid the system altogether. I never believed I was happy, I just couldn't face the process of getting help. Now I realise I need help, I accepted my GP's referral to the MH team, I co-operated with their assessment only to be told that because I've muddled through all these years and stayed safe there's no service for me. I understand how hard it is to motivate oneself to get the right help and hope that you find the strength you need for this.