You're not lazy, you're just depressed. And your depression is giving you all sorts of negative messages about yourself. Don't listen!

You're right, nothing in life is perfect, because then what would we have to reach for? Perfect is boring.

Maybe you could try to set smaller goals for yourself? Do you have a therp? They're good for working on setting goals. And also for these times when it feels like life sucks.

And you have this community here to be with.

Take good care of yourself.