Hey everyone, wasn't really sure where to post this thread but I guess I really need somewhere to vent and maybe speak with people who have been through or going through something similar. I'll have to provide a little bit of a backstory so please bear with me.

Well i'm a 25 year old man and it's the things I haven't done than the things I have that bother me most and everything started 8 years ago in school when I was deeply heartbroken and depressed after my girlfriend that I was madly in love with left me following which I spiralled out of control and my alcohol addiction spiralled into an opiate addiction, I dropped out of education and I have spent the last 7 years in a some strange drugged out state of mind where I have barely interacted with anyone but junkies and dealers and not spent even 1 day sober, I have recently quit everything about 3 weeks ago except marijuana and cigarettes but I've become depressed about missing out on some of the most vital years of my life, I missed out on my youth and especially all the girls I could have had but didn't accept because I thought the only person I could love was my ex. (that in itself is some kind of psychological disease, when one person believes that only one person is meant for them). Most of these realisations took place after my best friend from childhood moved back to the city tried to find me and was literally shocked to see the boy voted as "most likely to succeed" in high school with a needle in his arm, I owe him a great deal for talking me out of my addictions but he's been unable to help me with the regret, I have visited psychiatrists and therapists and all they do is prescribe medication and after my long years of experimentation with chemicals I don't think I need more. I literally traded my entire youth for a stupid high.

If anyone has some advice or a similar issue please share, maybe we can help each other out of this.

Cheers

HighD