I have been told I should write a book, or several actually, oh the things I have seen and experienced.

I didn't want to write about it all because what I write could "hurt" others who do not deserve to hurt, at least that is how I feel. It is the same reason I did not include the PTSD in my case too.

I have other big hurts that I have not shared here because I don't want if by chance others to see what I write or say or tell.

My T always tells me how vividly I describe things and he can tell I can see them all very vividly in my mind too. I thought it was like that for everyone, apparently that is not true, I dream very vividly "in color" too.

I think you are wrong, I think "telling" is healing, it helped me, but it has to be with someone who knows how to listen, and that can be hard to find. Actually, that was shown in the movie I like so much Good Will Hunting. Robin Williams character had it right, he knew he had to "wait" until Will talked "first". That is one of the best movies I have seen in a long time, most movies now are garbage IMHO.

OE