I'm so sorry if I'm not understanding you, but I thought you were very clear. Could you explain how you were misunderstood? Only you can know how you're feeling and what's in your head. People can only read what you write, after all. Do you just want to know if others feel the same way you do? I hope you find what you're seeking, and I wish you luck. Even if people don't understand someone, just like someone who speaks a different language, it doesn't mean they don't care and try to communicate. Please take care.