Can our relationship survive?
I dont know how to reach him
I love him
He wants me to leave him alone.
I hurt him by calling him names...
out of frustration I was wrong and deserve his anger
I always seem to be the blame
with out me...... he says he is better

he is on meds now
he goes to therapy
he works in film at a mental heath organization and seems to do well

I was with him each step of the way
I was with him in his psychosis
before meds it was my fault
with meds it is clear to him I am cruel and malicious
he really believes this
I stuck with him through all the mood swings
and some meds he will not take
his success makes me proud
but he refuses to share with me
he has made many promises he has not kept.
from simple house hold chores to small get aways to spend quality time
I walk on eggshells with him but if i say this he blows up
when things are good it is amazing and I fall in love all over again
when things are bad..... we both are broken
he never wants to speak to me again
i cant stop crying i feel so deeply and know he feels 100 x more deeply can it ever b normal for us?