Today was my dr appt. I have been experiencing psychotic symptoms for over 5 weeks. Delusions and hallucinations. It has been getting worse.

Supposed I was going on a France trip for 13 days. I fought to come back after 3 days because I believed I was the cause of the hailstorms in France. The people there havn't been getting hailstorms for as long as they can rmb. I was there for 3 days and two hail storms came. Stroke me on the road in vehicles both the times. Someone was trying to kill me. Or I was going to cause deaths in that city.

Finally I got to see my Dr. She was 'challenging' my thoughts, saying they never have logical/rational basis. She said since I don't like to take med, she is doing CBT with me. If I am not even trying to cooperate, no one can help me.

I am so alone. I feel like no one ever understands how strong the beliefs are, no matter how irrational. Now she is blaming me for not trying. It doesn't even feel like CBT. Just her telling me to think again and get over it. Plus, I am not even sure I am plain bipolar. I have periods of just psychosis without mood problems.

Any of you ever experience similar issues?