taking care of the inner child is a very important task. refute the voices in your head, tell them they are liars, you are good, decent, doing your best. and those are some good links Glok left for you.

some people find that an auditory (sound) technology helps the brain to smooth out those ruts, it's called Holosync. it comes in various forms, but is always enhanced by meditation.

i wish you the very best~
Gus