I read this every day, and think about making the pledge. But I just can't. I know that if the thoughts come creeping in, which is most days, I can't just swat them away. Sometimes I can distract myself a bit, sometimes I can delay but I can't get rid of them. I don't want to live until I'm 70/80 if I still feel like this. I just haven't got to a place where I can do this so to try and pledge for it would just be a lie.