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Originally Posted by optimistic_dolphin
Today was my dr appt. I have been experiencing psychotic symptoms for over 5 weeks. Delusions and hallucinations. It has been getting worse.
Supposed I was going on a France trip for 13 days. I fought to come back after 3 days because I believed I was the cause of the hailstorms in France. The people there havn't been getting hailstorms for as long as they can rmb. I was there for 3 days and two hail storms came. Stroke me on the road in vehicles both the times. Someone was trying to kill me. Or I was going to cause deaths in that city.
Finally I got to see my Dr. She was 'challenging' my thoughts, saying they never have logical/rational basis. She said since I don't like to take med, she is doing CBT with me. If I am not even trying to cooperate, no one can help me.
I am so alone. I feel like no one ever understands how strong the beliefs are, no matter how irrational. Now she is blaming me for not trying. It doesn't even feel like CBT. Just her telling me to think again and get over it. Plus, I am not even sure I am plain bipolar. I have periods of just psychosis without mood problems.
Any of you ever experience similar issues?
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Yes---I needed medicine for the cbt to work it would have not made sense to me because I knew everything to be fact(even when it was a delusion) when I was psychotic. I see medicine as one tool---I was on it for 2.5 years including a slow taper off. It doesn't have to be forever----the current recommendation is like 6 months symptom free for psychosis and then you can taper off. So here is the question do you hate medicine so much that you are willing to ruin fabulous vacations etc to stay off. Untreated psychosis tends to progress and get more confusing over time and while cbt is helpful you have to have the right mental state for it to work at all. Other than medicine mindfulness meditation has been shown to be somewhat promising but I really recommend meds for short term stabilization....