Hanging by a thread. While I'm grateful for the programs that exist to help with meds,I wish these programs were easier to navigate. I put way too much hope in Monday. Thanks to this site, life is controlled chaos which is better than regular chaos.....I think? Pounded the pavement in 90 degree weather looking for work with no results, thought about begging on the street corner which depressed me so much I started contemplating stepping out into traffic. Regained control and headed home where I sit now in tears. Taking every ounce of strength to believe it will get better.