Honey, are you sure that you're not projecting some negative feelings you have about yourself onto others? Do YOU think of yourself as "different" or unwanted or whatever? You seem to me like a good person! So I have to wonder if maybe you (for some reason) have convinced yourself that others see you in a bad way?? I don't think any of us at PC would think you were an "outcast"! Anyway, I hope things get better for you and that you find what you're looking for in this life!