I am really considering just giving up right now. I don't mean on life, I just mean trying to get better and all of that other stuff. Though I am living in an assisted living place, I am thinking that I may move out, I am thinking this because well I am tired of some things and I feel guilty for something. The person that I am the closest to hasn't been here for awhile and I am afraid that she either got fired or quit because of me. I am afraid of these things because she is the one that has been helping me the most. Some of the people here don't agree with her helping me and they have not been so nice. So this is my fear and if it is true than I am just going to throw in the towel on all of this. I sometimes wonder if that is the best thing to do anyway. I really am hurt right now. Especially since no one has told me. If she did quit, why didn't anyone tell me? It's only going to make things worse by not telling me. Really it is. I also have discussed this with one of my parts who was close to her. He said if she quit than the agreement is no longer any good. He made an agreement with her to no longer hurt me as long as she helped him. And if she is gone than he will go back. So this is really not a good thing. Especially to not tell me anything about all of this. I'm sorry for this, but I needed a way to express how I feel especially since no one here seems to want to talk to me anymore.

Jennifer