I'm extremely scared of my parents leaving me. I'm turning 18 in 6 months, my father litteraly hated and abused my guts when I was younger and my mother's ill. They don't want me to live at home cause I'm a danger to myself according to them, so I've been at this institution for a couple of months now. I hate it here. I want to be with my parents. I miss them so much. So now I keep trying to make them feel bad, threatening to never talk to them again if they wont take me back home, selfharming or threatening to commit suicide a lot etc. I never wanted to hurt them, I just wanted them to take me back and love them... it wasn't untill today, when one of the people who work here said "Sweetie, can't you see what you're doing? You're manipulating your parents. From what I've heard from your mom you've been doing this since you were a child... she keeps on asking why you're doing this to them because she loves you so much". I'm a terrible person. But I don't know how to stop. I'm disgusting.
Anyone else who does these sort of things without even realizing? How do you stop yourself from doing so?

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