Im afraid I have built up being hospitalization as a miracle cure??? I am having so, so much anxiety it is pushing me over the edge. I cut on a daily basis. I am not seriously thinking about suicide, but I do think a lot about the relief it would bring (emptiness, nothingness). I have been hospitalized before and it did help. I want to go inpatient but am afraid of the burden on my husband. He just lost his gma Saturday. I have been telling my self for weeks when she gets better, after she passes, after the funeral, a after the H has time to greive. Now I'm wondering if it's the right thing, do I really need that, will it help. Ugh I'm just too big of a wimp.