Yeah, that is pretty hardcore stuff you've went through. if it makes you feel any better MANY of us here have had hellish experiences also, losing family, losing jobs, losing our sanity, losing our homes, losing basically everything. So we can definitely relate to you and empathize with your suffering. i hope you can get all this stuff sorted out through therapy, medication, etc.
You are not alone. Unfortunately, many, many people have been abused, molested, tortured, or just have extremely bad mental conditions. But its not all bad. I overall love life, and I keep on trucking no matter what happens to me. But, yeah, life can be rally horrible sometimes.

You are welcome here, and don't worry about being judged, it is NOT YOUR FAULT, that you are sick, or that you were abused. I'm so sorry you were a victim of sexual abuse. But that was in the past, and it DOES NOT define who you are.