You said he was getting help and is taking meds; however, you aren't. There is a bit of co-dependent behavior here but he's removed himself from the co part and is changing for the better. Trouble is, you're not. Why might that be?

Either way, you're going to have to learn that when men say goodbye, they actually mean it. Therefore, you should set yourself to be finished and learn now to both find your medication(s) and find your new life. It will be better.

Until then, and I recommend this to everyone - as when one is 'stuck' one seriously ends up with a headache - as I am 'stuck' as well at the moment...... one word.....

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