I'm just so fed up with being irritable. I'm such a ***** to my daughter had I hate myself for it. This is not me. But it is at the same time. I'm in such pain all the time because of my back, hips and legs, and pressures to hve everything clean because I babysit. I feel like things are never clean enough. Like right now I'm trying to clean but sat down discouraged because it's never good enough. I'm just tired of being anxious about everything. I'm having a lot of anxiety about food lately too.